Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Back home..but not on track

Yes, I`m back People. It does feel a little strange though. Like it’s a whole new world. And I have to go back to the drawing board, redesigning again.

Today afternoon I decided I had to come over to the coffee shop at the University. That`s where I can get some substantial work done. So I did. But it felt strange really. I was gone only a month. And look what the cat dragged in, in this time. New faces all over the U. The normally empty bus crowded with strange, unfriendly faces. The gym teeming with freshers. Even the guy at the coffee shop(who incidentally has a sexy smile!) was gone! I`m feeling rather dismal.

Has it ever happened to any of you? You come back home, thinking you just have to pick up the threads where you`d left them. And lo and behold! You find those threads gone! There`s no comfort in the familiarity anymore. Because there isn’t much that is familiar anymore.

(* A melodramatic Piperish sigh* )

I, for one, am allergic to change of any sort.The G,on the other hand, loves to experiment. It could be anything really. Movies, books, food, meal timings. Anything. Even grocery stores for that matter. Which incidentally happens to be another thing that has me quite disconcerted. The G discovered this new Cub Foods very close to our house. So we`ll be turning that into our regular grocery store now. Which by the way, also means changing the brands of orange juice and milk that I normally consume. But of course, I have given in, grudgingly.

I like the brands we use now. I`m used to them. And although I`m not really a stickler for brand names and there`s nothing wrong with the ones available at this new store. Hell, infact the prices are even better here. But I hate the idea of change. Even if it means changing the brand of orange juice I have. You get the gist. Does that sound a little weird?

I know I`m probably being a little silly here. But I don’t quite like the idea of the campus being mobbed by a multitude of new faces in a new semester. All Chinese and Indians, by the way.

I wonder why I am so peeved. Is it because I always take badly to change of any sort, but shall eventually wean out? Or is it just a case of PMS? Or maybe, just maybe there`s a small fraction of me longing to be a part of a new semester, a new beginning and I know I cant really have any of that. Not right away, in any case.. Maybe that`s why there is some amount of disquiet in the mind. May be I shall be fine eventually.

Anyway, I leave you here with my rambling thoughts today. More later, when I`m feeling a little more coherent and bright.

13 comments:

D said...

Coming back from a holiday can be so disorienting. To me, even my own house seems unfamiliar. I see things I didn't know existed before I went off. But just as soon as it became strange, it returns to being familiar. Don't worry!

Apple Bee said...

I used to be just like that. Hated change. Loved the comfort of familiarity. I think I crave change now. I get too bored too soon! I get very impatient when there isn't change to occupy my mind.

Anonymous said...

Maybe 'i should come back to comment when I am done PMSing :p ...

but i hear ya about coming back from holiday and finding it tough to just pick up the threads and go ... it'll come back in a bit ... like d said. :)

im more like ur husband tho. always in search of change. something new. something different. we suffer from ADD for sure. both me and the G. :|

added u on g-talk which i am sure u never use. u intellectuals. :p

Anonymous said...

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Unknown said...

I so agree Piper. I just came from a weekend out of state and am feeling the blues. I so dread change too.

Sukhaloka said...

:hug:

It's been two months since I returned from Delhi, and I still don't feel the same. Though that has more to do with me changing than my surroundings. I'm a bit like you I guess - I can change, but I hate it when my suroundings change too fast. I guess I'm the ultimate control freak right now - I like change, but only as long as it's foreseen.

Take care!

Mira's mom said...

Hi Piper! I need to pinch you - we're ditto on the change! But, don't worry - am sure familiarity will once again set in - be it new faces on the campus or the new brand of orange juice. Take care :-)

Reflections said...

ohhhh I hate change too. But I've noticed that after being forced to accept it I realise this is better than the previous but ofcourse I'll never let anyone know;-D

What u going thru is just the after effects of a vacation....it will take u a week or two to get back on track & after tht Bingo...u've never been away

Nisha said...

hey...firstly sorry, i havent been able to reply to all ur comments on my blog...i will..someday :)
change is veryy tough to handle. the milk will taste different, you'll look for that sexy smile in the new guy :) and so much more.
soon, you'll love the newness, and the old will not seem so dear anymore!

my space said...

I have always feel so after a holiday.A month is a long time.when I`d go to my mom`s place and get back my own room,cupboards any and everything would seem strange..you`l snap out don`t worry..as for change-same pinch..

surbhi said...

I'm quite the opposite actually. Any sort of change lifts my spirits. I love to see new faces - new students wandering around clueless - though I do agree with you on the disturbing amounts of Chinese and Indian students coming in every year. My department is totally ruled by Chinese kids!
Anyway, drop me an email at nostalgicchica@gmail.com whenever you get a chance.

Renu said...

Hello ! where r u? I am missing u:)

Sunshine said...

yep yep felt the same...more so when i used to make the switch between home and university hostel during the summer hols...i miss my hostel and friends when im home and nothing seems right at home...and i miss mom/dad/bro, home cooked food and the comforts of home when im @ uni...