Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Insanity...and a lost cat!

"When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being happy and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth!"
- Cynthia Heimel
And so I go about, making a complete F&%%&*%* A%^%*^& of myself.
Each day!
In some way or the other!
People, I have a grad school interview lined up for the 5th of April. It is just so crucial that I do a good job. Because if I don't make it, I will die. No kidding. I can't imagine sitting at home for another year. I feel immense anger at myself for allowing this to mean so much to me. I realize the potential aftermath, if I fail. And yet, instead of working for it, I just while away my time.
Am I delusional? No seriously, am I?
And then yesterday afternoon, the weirdest thing happened!
I walked out to the backyard to find myself being greeted by a cat! He came running towards me to rub against my legs I think. And poor unsuspecting me! I nearly had a fit! You`ll never find a stray animal around where I live. So I realized he must be lost. And terribly scared. And I wondered what to do.
Truth be told, I am not a cat person. In fact I would even go so far as to say that I`m very scared of cats. But I didn't want the poor little thing to die. He would you know, out in the cold(Yes People, even in March! It`s Minnesota!)without food. So I decided to leave the porch door open and wait for him to come inside and sleep. I thought it would be good to wait it out till The G came home. So I left him a bowl of water and the door open. And lo and behold, he came rushing in, even before I had a chance to make an escape. He thought it was his home! But he realized quickly enough(seeing me dart inside) that it wasn't. Nonetheless, he decided to stay for a while. Sniffed around the chairs in the porch, and then settled down on the floor. And then he left, as suddenly as he had appeared.

I cannot begin to tell you how I`m feeling right now.
He`s gone of course. I dont know where. And it`s bothering me. I wish I had some way of knowing that he`s found his way back home.
And as I sit here wondering why he paid me a visit, just like that, I cant help smiling at the momentary truth of the connection we shared, albeit very briefly. It was strange - here we were, Mr Cat and me; loneliness,the sole nexus between us; and each trying in our own ways,to find our way back home..And may be..just may be, we did.

We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.

-Pink Floyd


Chatterbox said...

Aww that was so sweet of you :)
I too had a similar cat visitor last month, and guess what, he is now my pet cat.
Have a read of what all happened when she and I first met and the days that followed.

Good luck with your interview :D
Fear and nervousness lead to errors and loss of confidence.
Give it your best shot and you shall succeed.

Take care :)


Sraboney said...

All the best!

Amrita said...

Piper I completely understand how it feels to while away time before something important and somehow i feel its "adult" psychology to do that :D dont worry, just do what ur heart feels like :) That way you would be happy end of day.
And stray animals coming over... thats soooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeet.. and good u kept something for it. It must have found its way home. :) Dont worry

Anonymous said...

Good luck on your interview! I am sure you will do well.
It was kind of you to help the cat!I hope the cat's found its way home now!

Piper .. said...

Chatterbox: Wow! I cant believe you have Tinkle for a pet now! :):) This one seems to have disappeared! How I wish it would come back :(

Sraboney: Thanks,my friend! I so need it.

Amrita: Married Indian women dont have the luxury of doing exactly what the heart wants to! :):) On maturer reflection, you`re right of course. Today I will make conscious efforts to do just that :)

Anonymous: Thank you for leaving a comment. I hope the cat got back home too.. I think it may have, because I never spotted it after that. I even went to look for it around the neighbourhood.

Jira said...

Good luck Mishy...
I know how you feel. No, u are not delusional, u are just normal :) I have a feeling you'll do really well. There is still April 4th to prepare :)

Cats....No I am def not a cat person, plus the allergies. But such simple company can make our day in this 'lonely' country!

Sagarika said...

Woh! Am surpised.. leave you to check my latest post to judge whether it is coincidence or the "being in the same shoes" line that i wrote in my mail to you that fits the best!

:).... As of now.... this post made me listen to Smelly Cat Smelly Cat what are they feedign you.. am sorry but I dont know any toher cat songs :(

Indyeah said...

All the very best Piper
(((((((((((hugs)))))lots of love and a prayer for that interview.

Go get em:)

Piper .. said...

Jira: :) I already have lunch plans for the 4rth!! Can you believe that? Hopefully, I`ll be prepared enough by then, to be able to afford that lunch out with friends!

Sagarika: Like I said, it must be some kind of telepathy - listening to the same song! :)
I remember only Phoebe(Friends)`s version of Smelly Cat!!

Indyeah: good to see you here after so long! :) Thanks a ton, my friend!

Anonymous said...

You were really an angel to have let him in, and that, when you are not even a cat person. If it's a lost cat you might see it again... did you see any ad for a lost cat in the local newspapers? The pictures are really nice!!

My best wishes for your interview Piper. Just do your best and then don't worry about it. Hugs.

Piper .. said...

IHM: No ads, IHM. I did ask around. No one seems to have lost a cat! I`m only hoping he`s found his way back. I havent spotted him since..
Thanks for the wishes, IHM. I so need it :)

J P Joshi said...

Best of luck for your interview. Heeding my wife's exhortation to me, 'no sermons please' - just be a good listener. I am sure you will do your best and one can never do better than one's best.

moon said...

Just be relaxed and attend the interview...u will get thru...